Saturday, January 2, 2010
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
to the person i almost considered "my life"
i told myself i would love you
and never gonna hurt you…
you were my bestfriend,
my love,
my everything…
til one day,you came and said,
“im tired,im afraid i cant stay with you any longer…”
i refuse to believe you at first,
but when i saw those tears fell down your cheeks,
it spells out the truth about how you really feel inside.
you were deeply hurt,i know…
i was hurt too…
you cant even look straight into my eyes when you said,
“it was too late…”
my life has changed at that very moment…
i just found myself on bended knees yelling…
why???
i was down,completely…
but i had to be strong…
until the day has come for us to say goodbye…
i knew it,but i just cant accept it…
if only i knew that was the last time,
i should have held you and never let go.
the kiss,whisper,and embrace…
it was the last…
i can feel your arms falling down slowly…
i know youre gone.
we always thought our love was enough for us to last…
it was a sad ending…
its God’s will…
i know you’re happy now…
and me,here i am hurting…
broken…
how can i forget all those times?
how can i start over once again?
i know i cant get you back.
this has been the longest moment of my life…
the most painful time i ever had…
the sadness of the night brings back the days we had,
the time you let go of me,
and the moment that i surrendered you…
even silence reminds me of all the sorrow…
the pain…
and my hopelessness…
let me suffer in silence,til i get over you.
slowly,i can let you go…
and i will be me once again.
i will be keeping my promise,
i will move on…
but you will always be,
a part of me…
hear me say this…
“i have found the essence of my life,
i have discovered a world that’s beautiful,
because of you…”
my love,my misery…
im letting go of you now…
its time to set myself free…
this is the hardest thing i will do,
coz i still love you…
and this love…
this is all i have…
Monday, December 28, 2009
my personal perception about love
Monday, December 21, 2009
Christmas wish of my broken heart...
Friday, November 27, 2009
why??
so many questions are troubling my mind now. and since the break-up, i hardly find any way to pick the broken pieces of my heart. i tried almost everything but nothing can ever ease the agony.. you certainly captured me with your charm and now i cant let go…
r u feeling the same way or it really doesn’t matter to u at all.. do u also feel the emptiness like the hollow portion in my heart.. r u fine as if nothing has ever happened.. r u happy now that u know that i am tearing apart..
How i wish time will mend the pain, but its been a month and i guess it will still take a long way.. for now, no any pain killers can relieve the sorrow but i must go on and live my life even without someone like you..
despite all of these, a part of me still wanting u to come back,.. a part of me saying my heart still beats for u and only for u… ill be a hypocrite if i would say i am okay; and behind my faking smile, the loneliness hides…
if ever u read this letter, i want you to know that i am still here waiting, and i guess i will forever be waiting,,, and i love you a million times a day…